Day 5 : Organizing

My god! 2 day more is PM's 21 year old birthday !
Today she call me from Penang, and ask me to organize for her. =.=""
Fuh, So stress man. For your information,I am really poor in planning.
After her call, I quickly write down all those name in a name list who will be invite on that day.
Sent out all those msg to confirm.
When afternoon I directly went to a cake house somewhere at Bukit Tinggi and book a KEY SHAPE 2Kg cake. The flavour are Black Forest.
Now left out the venue for her 21th birth celebration.
BBQ ? GREEN BOX ? STEAK HOUSE ? CAFE? ( Worrying )

Day 3 : Tension Release

Today attend a party at friends house. ><
I never heard from them been few days.
Today i get to know their news as an accident.
No one know that we had argued and No one know that why i am moody.
Erm... they are happy and looks enjoy with their new year.
Haha, I am quite lost and dunno what kind of mood i should have when i hear of it!
Mayb I am really not that important person for them.

To be honest, Father is really important for me. I can say it with thousand confident.
Do it still need to be concern ? ( Sad )

Day 2 : A Midnight show

Yeah !! Finally !!
Have been 3 days cant get to meet with him. I miss him so much ~ :p
Finally today I can get to meet with him le. ( Happy happy )
Y2k called us for a movie at night. When night around 7p.m , He bring me to Kenny Roger for dinner and then we hang out with ah boii them! I keep noise him for the LG Ice Cream phone. Haha
We watched WEDDING GAME !
There are 10 ppls here, and our seat are arrange by this way : 2 Row
1st Row from the left are Winnie, Ah boii, y2k, Elaine's Cousin, Elaine, Mc, Kiddo.
2nd Row me & dylan ...

When the end of the movie, something happen and so ngam let Mc and Kiddo saw it!
They keep laughing at us ~
And keep playing the role play of the scene! Hem! damn pai sei ><>

1st Day of Chinese New Year

Dint go anywhere! I refuse all those invitation these 2 days, I just wanna stay at home with my very damn bad mood. When everyone is busying "gambling" n "gaming", i was just sitting aside watched TV. My eye was stare at the TV but I am not there. The incident keep on appearing in my mind. Whenever I think of the converstation, my tear will start dropping again and again ! Why the one who suspect our friendship was her ? We had been go through many waves , that's still not enough to prove it ? Such question keep on appearing in my mind! Is hurt~ I try stop my self from thinking it ! But i cant ! Really Cant !

When night, I am regret that dint follow my family along to temple. I plan to sleep but at last i end up with crying again ! I called PM...

What's going on ?

I don't want celebrate ChineseNewYear!

I feel very lonely, I am really moody...

Don't like that, let's go penang with me!

Don't want , No Money.

No Need , I pay For you!

You just need to enjoy the trip。

This is the part of our talk, after the talk with her, I feel very touch ! Really touch ! She told me not to be alone and find something to do. FullFill my mind and not to blank it.

Ya, She is always the one who will nervous about me even more than my self and guide me when i am lost !

Thanks !

Losing

Things will never goes like what u expect. Today are new year eve but i have no mood to awaiting for the new year arrive. Tomorrow nian chu yi but I am still at the down mood! Seriously Down. Seem like There are many vexation surrounding me suddenly ! Our matter seem Like settle down but it wasn't. I have out of idea to rescue the matter. I am dead of it. Everything had end up with a exclamation mark. It is all my fault!

After the chat with father (I hope she will not mind that i still calling her like this ) , I din't know is that is the last talk between us. I don't know . I really don't know! Back the converstation, she had told me many things that i am not in the situation but they think I am. I don't know why WX said something that are not truth and wil hurt our friendship badly! The most concern was she asked me do i throw out my sincere to friend with them ? I don't know why thing turn into so complicated! But the word from her, had hurt me badly ! When i know that I will going to lose her. I can't control my tear. It start droping...

Today, I lose 3 friend ! This is the climax in my life . Yes, it is .

When i am hiding in my room, My mom suddenly come in. She saw I m crying in the phone and thought i had argue with friend. I get scold from her! She ask me stop crying and don't influence my daddy's mood later. After the cried, i decided. I decided not to avoid! This is my fault , i should accept the result ! That's losing the one who very important to me.

Dear, I had lose Everything ... I lose Everything ~