烂透了!!

我现在的心情烂透了… 心里有一股说不出的感觉，是难过吗？生气？还是思念？
今天我做什么事都很模糊，我的心里在到底在想什么 ，为什么会一直的晃着 ~
我到底在烦恼什么啊…
我的脑袋线路
改变不了的事，我应该学会习惯吧。而我… 学会了吗?
每个人都在不停的前进，唯有我还在起跑点。
自问我到底在犹豫什么?
现在的我要寻找更多能让我自己长进的空间！没错！ 我要加油！
我要摆脱这种烂心情！！ ！ ！ ！

Look Out POint ~

懒惰懒惰… T.T 我都快变宅女了啦。

注:此页是为lengleng写的，她从今早吹我到现在！哈~

原以为假期咯，可以好好利用这两天的时间来补偿，怎知道当我的假期和他家人的假期落在同一天我们就等于过着礼拜天，就酱我们的两天也都泡汤了。

昨晚终于去了Look Out Point~ 哈哈。Leng Leng 说话算话爱死你了！不像某些人啊 ( Milkie )，明明讲好要一起去的说，礼拜天打去的时候既然给我说她刚从那回着来，昨晚来了也没带她老婆来！也就算了，下来了也没通知声害得我还在那费尽脑汁的帮她Gao Tim她的住宿！你们评评理啊！还好本小姐我大人有大量，就不罚你了！哈哈哈哈 :P


当晚现场不知怎么就成了场联谊会！让我来和你们介绍，我呢就和leng leng 配，Dylan呢就和他的最爱阿奶配，y2k呢就和boi , Kiddo呢就和个神秘嘉宾，Stive呢就和神秘嘉宾的朋友配！哈哈哈哈哈

回家的途中我和ｙ２ｋ讨论了我们下个目标！Luna Bar And d Sky Bar…　听说那里很美～　有个泳池在旁边也可以看到KL的夜景！Stive 还说如果要找帅哥或小开就去Poppy ，亲爱的这是个错的质询！不要听！哈哈！至于我怎么会知道呢．．．这可是个不能说的秘密！哇哈哈哈哈哈哈
下来分享照片的时候了~ ^^ ... 其他的就上的我facebook 吧~

Lonely Graduation

那么久没上来,小姐的部落格既然都长满了蜘蛛网 :p 最近被懒惰虫缠身啊，又沉迷于电脑游戏！！其余的事情都被忽略了，又得忙着赚钱养家，哈哈！亲爱的朋友们，如果有什么工钱高的part Time 记得和我分享！*最近穷死了*

从毕业典礼后我就没回kl了~ Hais ... 说到毕业典礼.... 看照片后你们就知道我的毕业典礼是多么的孤独啊，都怪我这可恶的胃！亏我前天还紧张到没得好睡！
毕业典礼从 9:00a.m 到 12:00pm ，那天七早八早我们就赶过去了， 本来我和我的同班同学约好了结束后集合一起拍大合照的说，怎知我这该死的胃痛既然在这时候给我发作！！！ =.= ... 就这样我离开学校了。回家后看到facebook 大家都纷纷上载了很多毕业照！ 大家都一大班一大班的说，唯独我！讨厌啊！ 你们可想象我的心情是恶劣到....



（本小姐的那一天就是酱！结束 >< )

还有很多很多要和你们分享的，但夜深了，我老爸示威了！哈哈
大家尽情期待下集吧~ :p

被爱与悲哀

“不管昨天有多么的糟糕，多么的不好...但是我们一睁开眼睛，完全是崭新的一天！一切都是重新开始的...只要活着一天，就要享受一天的快乐！！”

是在一个网路上看到了这么一句话，没错，我们总不能把今天的不开心带到明天去的。
这几天陆陆续续，吵了又好，好了又吵，有时连我们自己也不知道我们为了什么而吵了。

是我的问题吧，应该不去计较吗？ 这方面我就是无法说服我自己...

他是多次清楚的让我知道我们的感情是多么的不稳固~
我就像处于在随时会和人互交同一个男友；随时会失去一个很重要的人似的，
是因为害怕吗？我再也不期待什么...

眼泪为了什么而落下，有谁会知道？
人就是那样，越是不想想的事，越是我们连忘都无法忘的事~

老天啊，赶快让我脑袋通一通吧~快去掉那些不该存在我脑袋里的记忆吧~
要不然和我在一起的人应该都很痛苦吧。

想爱就去爱... 我不会后悔与不让自己有任何遗憾。

至少现在的我是幸福的~ ^^

考试咯

考试到了。。考试到了。。
（注：本小姐最痛恨考试了！）
因为平时娱乐太多了所以在这时候都会特别拚！也比别人特别的压力！ :p
我就是享受在这种生活中！哈哈！所谓长痛不如短痛，所以我选择了最后的冲刺！哈哈

考试的前一天，令称为我们的集合日！这天大家都会纷纷的聚在一起读书，讲话。哈哈！
今天我们集合在“一样”家。除了一样以外我们隔天都有考试。

当我在死命的背书时，他们就在那死命的聊DOTA... =.=
读到凌晨五点时，状况发生了~ 我们的 Gorilla 秘密被揭开了！哈
精彩到~ 不好意识啦，这我没办法和你们在这分享，我会被他砍死的。哈哈

再来，Gorilla 突然化身成神父给我说教！
他给我说了很多人生道理，也被我现实生活的事实顶撞了！:p
聊到早上七点，我们就收拾吃早餐去咯！

疯狂时刻~

被关了那么久~ T.T



压抑了那么久~



忍耐了那么久~


现在我们要玩足三天三夜！！YEAH！！！！！(压力嘛)

来大家跟我一起唱~

一点也不会累 我已经跳了三天三夜

我现在的心情喝汽水也会醉 oh完全都不会疲倦

我还要再跳三天三夜 我现在的心情轻得好像可以飞

分享时刻 ^.^：

最佳保姆正是本小姐

最近我妈又帮人顾多了也个宝宝！ 那宝宝好好好可爱啊。一个宝宝、一个小妹妹另加个爱吵闹的我, 我家简直吵是到不行。

孝顺的我当上了副保姆的职位，每天得陪他们玩、哄他们睡觉、陪他们唱唱歌、教他们做功课、得空还要抱抱宝宝、等等等... 听起来很忙Hor, 但我处于乐在其中。嘻嘻，妹妹还厉害到会陪我合唱草戒指呢。短短的几个月我教会了她很多很多首流行曲。Geng leh ~ wakaka 孺子可教！



宝宝档案 ：
















可爱咧~四个月大，名叫政伟。 ^^ 最爱人家把他抱在怀里。

五岁大，名叫宁慧。最爱捣蛋，长大后也许就是我们大马的天后了~哈哈哈

当上保姆的日子。。。

除了走Show~这也是其中本小姐美腿的可用之处。:p

来来来，大合照~ Cheessss ^^

----完毕----

注意：Y2_ , 是不是觉得我运用言语的技巧很好咧~ 哇哈哈

时光机游记

这个晚上我们俩讲着讲着就踏上了时光机，回到前前前前前几个月。
请问多少个前呢？想想应该有13个月吧，哈哈:P (无聊)

我们在电话里聊着聊着，就聊到了我们第一次的相遇，与些难忘的时光。最好的是他跟我说的第一句话正是“不”！

在本小姐的记忆里，第一次见到他时，还以为他是那种坏坏的， 哈~以前他很八卦的咯，常常跑过来我那打扰我工作。而且常常会有一大包的摇摇冰吃呢，多好！每天还吵着和我要照片。哈哈
告诉你们，他是我前所未有见过的笨蛋，常常为我精心大造的“惊喜”都会被他自己拆穿。哈哈 下次我再一个一个的和你们分享吧。

可是最近我们不懂怎么，俩人好像火星撞地球似的。常为了一点小事闹得很响。谁爱吵架阿！我最受不了冷战，但常为了闹气搞得自己很痛苦！尤其面对的是自己最在乎的，最刺痛我的不是事故而是你对我的冷淡和不理睬。虽然害怕失去却又不知道该怎么去珍惜。曾经为了你，努力去学会温柔，不乱发小姐脾气。对于你，我总爱口是心非，明明很爱，却还要嘴硬的否认，明明不想那么做，却为了气你，最后吵得更响！我想要只是想你来哄我嘛。你这笨蛋却怎么点也点不明！

希望我们的感情会有好转吧~

心理測驗

好东西分享的时候了，试试看吧。对我而言，满准的！哈~^^

心理測驗題目：

什麼原因會讓你想哭? 排一下自己最易哭的原因! (1是最容易 , 5是最不容易)

五個選項分別是：

a.感動

b.傷心

c.痛( 是肉體, 不是心靈)

d.生氣

e.擔心/緊張 排好了嗎？準備看答案囉！

請看自己把該選項排在第幾個順位來找解答喔∼

* a.感動：不是跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......

排在第1 - 一個常常把自己藏起來的人。很有神秘感。不容易接近。

排在第2 - 一個很會關心別人的人。很容易發現身邊有人不開心。不會很容易講錯東西或話題。

排在第3 - 一個傻傻的人。怪怪的。想做什麼就做什麼。不過很可愛。

排在第4 - 一個不會想﹐老是要人擔心的人。(特別是長輩)

排在第5 - 一個很聰明﹐很負責任的領導人。對你很尊敬。

* b.傷心：跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......

排在第1 - 對很多事都要求很高的人。不過有很多時候都太固執。

排在第2 - 可以跟你講道理。黑白之間分辨得很清楚。

排在第3 - 心思很細膩的人。很多時候傷心不會表現出來，不過其實大家都看得出來。

排在第4 - 會先想很多才會做選擇。不想自己給人看扁,自尊可以算是很強的人。

排在第5 - 外剛內柔的人。但其實知道你的內心不是那麼堅強。

* c.痛：你想要別人覺得你是 ......

排在第1 - 很需要別人保護的人。

排在第2 - 不是那麼容易接近的人。

排在第3 - 好人一個。很關心身邊的人。不怕

犧牲的人。

排在第4 - 很聰明 , 不過又不會驕傲的人。

排在第5 - 很清楚自己想什麼要什麼的人。

* d.生氣：你最希望你的情人是......

排在第1 - 跟你很合拍。你跟他想的東西是一樣 ,不用問便知道對方要什麼。

排在第2 -不會很客易發脾氣。要懂得容忍你。外剛內柔。有自己的性格。

排在第3 - 內心是很可愛的一個人。你猜不到下一步他會做什麼。

排在第4 -很細心。你需要什麼他都有準備。不會因為很少的東西便找你。

排在第5 - 智慧很重要。可以管得到你的人。而且要講道理。

* e.擔心 /緊張：其實真實的你是 ......

排在第1 - 一個很怕給別人看到自己是什麼樣的人。不喜歡自己性格的人。

排在第2 -孤獨的人。很希望可以跟一大堆人在一起。不過很多時候都不知道怎樣跟別人溝通。

排在第3 -覺得朋友比天還重要的人。很珍惜身邊很多朋友。敢愛敢恨。不過不喜歡的人你就不會去管..

排在第4 -直接的人。很多時候因為這樣的性格跟別人不合。希望有多一點人可以了解你, 特別是你喜歡的人。

排在第5 -不是很清楚自己將來要什麼。不過就很幸運的走過半生。不會對很多東西有要求。最重要是可以開心過每一天!

爱能够衡量吗？

在爱情里或许能让你感受到甜蜜，对我而言爱情是个充满了连你都无法想象的谎言世界！
当他很诚恳的对你说，你是她的最爱，当时陶醉在他的甜言蜜语的你有没有想过，这句话他已重复了好几次！你有没有想过，其实在你之前他都是这么跟他前女友说的！
如果你知道了，可信度会是多少?! 原本让人听起来很感动的字言又带来的什么样的含义呢？
没错！那种种的承诺和甜言蜜语又是什么！
爱情骗子！ 我讨厌你！
没有例外！每个都是一样的！
爱情就是这样没有什么无畏的保障！

Our First Trip

Feel quite sorry to him.

At first this should be only 2 ppl travel but at last end up become a trip with my whole gang classsmate! haha

The behind story goes like this, we already plan for our first trip at Genting, a day when one of my classmate (Liang) said wanna go Genting after our last paper, at the moment I just ask them go along with me. haha

Well, He really quite angry and keep nag me about that! Haha

~~ 1st Day ~~

Today, we need to go Titiwangsa with them. Unfortunely we miss up 2 train, and the KTM schedule had been delay. At that moment I was just very worry that will be late. Luckily, The smartest guy was beside me. :p He ask me to tell (Liang) them that we will go by our self from Kl Centre. When we get in the Genting bus, my mind come to me that Yeah, can sleep luu.

Nooo.... someone keep talking nonstop beside me.

"Hey, i had already check the weather these 2 day " , "Ohh" (Eye Closing)

" You see You see that uncle like very familiar with the scedule of that Genting bus , he must be go gamble fequently" (Knock me), "Dun Kepo la u" (Back to sleep )

"GoodNews (Excited) later we dun need to Q when get in to the Caber car cause I bring along my daddy Genting card, smart leh" , "Hana Hana" (Losting Patience)

Without a second ...

"Do u know there are 3 diff card holder , green, silver , gold, ... (Start explain each color of that card)" , "YORRR... can u let me sleep first pls.. T.T " (Finally, i get to sleep! phew...)

2 Hour later ...

WE REACH LUUUUUUU~

We be arrange in a room with May and Poh chee.

After check In we get in our own room and start our journey. Haha

Well, (quite lazy now) :P , so you guys Just hav a look to our photo below la ^^ hehe

Sorry Seem to be the hardest word

These few day, I feel like we are more than mile apart. Arguement keep happen continously between us. I am really sick of it.

Why do these happen ? Is it my temper goes worst or anything happen to u that I din't know

cause you losting your patience ?

Both of us start to be mute just to vent one's spleen. Suddenly, you call me and show me something... (SORRY made by french fried )

I smile to you ... (cannot tahan d)Haha

why do you always did such stupid thing de.

BEN DAN ! ! Thanks ...

Last Paper

Yeah ~ Finally finish my last paper!
Today early in the morning , roughly 6.30a.m we already depart from Klang. Thanks much Dylan. He purposely fetch me there. :p
Love You ^^
When we are reaching my college, I get a surprise. A message from my beloved and Ah zhen to wish me good luck. Thanks Muacckks.
While I am having my last paper, someone went to the nearest JPJ help me to renew my license. Pity him, he have to wait me for 2 hour.
After my paper, we go back Gk to pack my stuff and go for a movie, InkHeart.
A movie full of imagination and magic~

How much you know about GIRL ?

Today I read an mail from my friend. Feel quite accurate for me . lols
Well, I hope it could help "Someone" get more knowledge toward Girl's feeling. "Someone " who are Stupid and not really sharp in relationship. Ya, I am saying you~ Ben Dan !!

That's It :

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wonderinghow long you will be around.
When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.When a Girl wants to see you everyday.... she wants to be pampered.when a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.

When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person....

Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.Who turns to his friends and says, 'That's her!! '

Hehe. I am here to say that, I found him!
Do you ?
My dear friends, Jia you oh ~
Wish you all the best!!

Day 5 : Organizing

My god! 2 day more is PM's 21 year old birthday !
Today she call me from Penang, and ask me to organize for her. =.=""
Fuh, So stress man. For your information,I am really poor in planning.
After her call, I quickly write down all those name in a name list who will be invite on that day.
Sent out all those msg to confirm.
When afternoon I directly went to a cake house somewhere at Bukit Tinggi and book a KEY SHAPE 2Kg cake. The flavour are Black Forest.
Now left out the venue for her 21th birth celebration.
BBQ ? GREEN BOX ? STEAK HOUSE ? CAFE? ( Worrying )

Day 3 : Tension Release

Today attend a party at friends house. ><
I never heard from them been few days.
Today i get to know their news as an accident.
No one know that we had argued and No one know that why i am moody.
Erm... they are happy and looks enjoy with their new year.
Haha, I am quite lost and dunno what kind of mood i should have when i hear of it!
Mayb I am really not that important person for them.

To be honest, Father is really important for me. I can say it with thousand confident.
Do it still need to be concern ? ( Sad )

Day 2 : A Midnight show

Yeah !! Finally !!
Have been 3 days cant get to meet with him. I miss him so much ~ :p
Finally today I can get to meet with him le. ( Happy happy )
Y2k called us for a movie at night. When night around 7p.m , He bring me to Kenny Roger for dinner and then we hang out with ah boii them! I keep noise him for the LG Ice Cream phone. Haha
We watched WEDDING GAME !
There are 10 ppls here, and our seat are arrange by this way : 2 Row
1st Row from the left are Winnie, Ah boii, y2k, Elaine's Cousin, Elaine, Mc, Kiddo.
2nd Row me & dylan ...

When the end of the movie, something happen and so ngam let Mc and Kiddo saw it!
They keep laughing at us ~
And keep playing the role play of the scene! Hem! damn pai sei ><>

1st Day of Chinese New Year

Dint go anywhere! I refuse all those invitation these 2 days, I just wanna stay at home with my very damn bad mood. When everyone is busying "gambling" n "gaming", i was just sitting aside watched TV. My eye was stare at the TV but I am not there. The incident keep on appearing in my mind. Whenever I think of the converstation, my tear will start dropping again and again ! Why the one who suspect our friendship was her ? We had been go through many waves , that's still not enough to prove it ? Such question keep on appearing in my mind! Is hurt~ I try stop my self from thinking it ! But i cant ! Really Cant !

When night, I am regret that dint follow my family along to temple. I plan to sleep but at last i end up with crying again ! I called PM...

What's going on ?

I don't want celebrate ChineseNewYear!

I feel very lonely, I am really moody...

Don't like that, let's go penang with me!

Don't want , No Money.

No Need , I pay For you!

You just need to enjoy the trip。

This is the part of our talk, after the talk with her, I feel very touch ! Really touch ! She told me not to be alone and find something to do. FullFill my mind and not to blank it.

Ya, She is always the one who will nervous about me even more than my self and guide me when i am lost !

Thanks !

Losing

Things will never goes like what u expect. Today are new year eve but i have no mood to awaiting for the new year arrive. Tomorrow nian chu yi but I am still at the down mood! Seriously Down. Seem like There are many vexation surrounding me suddenly ! Our matter seem Like settle down but it wasn't. I have out of idea to rescue the matter. I am dead of it. Everything had end up with a exclamation mark. It is all my fault!

After the chat with father (I hope she will not mind that i still calling her like this ) , I din't know is that is the last talk between us. I don't know . I really don't know! Back the converstation, she had told me many things that i am not in the situation but they think I am. I don't know why WX said something that are not truth and wil hurt our friendship badly! The most concern was she asked me do i throw out my sincere to friend with them ? I don't know why thing turn into so complicated! But the word from her, had hurt me badly ! When i know that I will going to lose her. I can't control my tear. It start droping...

Today, I lose 3 friend ! This is the climax in my life . Yes, it is .

When i am hiding in my room, My mom suddenly come in. She saw I m crying in the phone and thought i had argue with friend. I get scold from her! She ask me stop crying and don't influence my daddy's mood later. After the cried, i decided. I decided not to avoid! This is my fault , i should accept the result ! That's losing the one who very important to me.

Dear, I had lose Everything ... I lose Everything ~